SHED

Ahhhhh!!!! The journey has begun. My destination is in sight and for the first time in a long time I am hopeful. I can do this! This time last week (New Year's Day), I woke with a heavy heart, barely able to control my grief. The change I prayed for the night before was causing me great discomfort. My life was beginning to shift and I was being forced to adjust.

God is grooming me. January 1, he stripped me down and made me stand in the mirror and really look at myself and my life. Then the questions came. Who are you? I don't know anymore. Are you happy? No! What are you going to do about it? PRAY, FIGHT, CHANGE!

Then came the tears, and they fell until there were no more. It was a cleansing of my soul and I felt weak but somehow stronger. Strong enough to let go. Let go of a bad relationship that I had been holding on to for far too long, 50lbs. Strong enough to admit I needed to ask my friends and family for help, 25lbs. Strong enough to forgive myself and everyone and everything I believe brought me to this point; forgive, walk away and move forward 75lbs. The weight of unhappiness and unfulfillment has been weighing me down. Causing me to overeat and under live. As I continue to forge ahead on my journey, I plan to shed not only the physical weight that plaques my body but the mental weight that plaques my mind and my spirit.

You see I prayed for a Phabolous Life....360 degrees of complete happiness, Bliss. I don't want to simply look Phabolous, I want to be Phabolous. Beginning with a Phabolous relationship with God. I want to walk in my purpose and discover a phabolous new career. I want to fall in love...with me and carry on a life long love affair with myself. I want to love myself to health. I want to live a life that will be remembered long after I am gone, a life that even others will regard as Phabolous!