Weighing In

For as long as I can remember I have been a thick, full figured, plus size girl. During my formative years I was considered "big for my age". I was taller than my peers and at least 20 pounds heavier but I was as cute as a button, so no one really made a big fuss over the extra weight I was carrying. It wasn't until my pre-teen years that I begin to realize that my weight was a problem. You know, those critical years when your sense of self is developed, your self esteem is forged and your confidence is either built or broken. That's when society decided to tell me that the extra pounds I had carried my entire life were no longer cute and I needed to rid myself of them before my weight got out of control.
Soon after I was pushed (kicking and screaming) into the lovely community known as "highschool", where clicks and labels are created and only a SLIM few make the cut. I was quickly catagorized as FAT. Don't get me wrong my highschool years were okay. I was funny, smart and still cute as a button "in the face" , so I was accepted by most of my classmates and quickly settled in on a nice group of friends. Regardless I had to develop a thick skin to deal with the FAT JOKES from wanna be comedians and jokesters. But that was a long time ago, a VERY long time ago.

Over the years the thick skin has softened into self acceptance. I've become very comfortable in the skin I'm in. However, I still battle with my weight daily, trying different diets, joining several weight loss programs and gyms (wasting my money) but the need to be THIN is no longer there. I come from a long line of full figured Divas. Woman that are confident, well put together and very attractive. Phabolous!


                  Is it possible to be PHAT and still be considered PHABOLOUS?


                                                                         *Sticky Note*
Right now there are several skinny chicks reading this blog shaking their pretty little heads in the negative and to them I say.... Go have a snack and get back to me when you realize that True Beauty comes in many different shades and sizes.


As for the rest of you I say Yes, it is very possible to be Phat and Phabolous. It's all about where you feel comfortable. I've seen Phabolous divas strutting their stuff at a size 12 or a size 26/28. You betta ask about them!!! Because they are definitely out there. Now for me...I believe I'm at my best at about a size 18/20 or even a 22 (Straight not stretch, LOL! That stretch is a trick of the devil). Anyway these are sizes I haven't seen in a while.


Which brings me to my next objective: I will commit myself to a healthier lifestyle in 2010. I need to lose some weight, develop a exercise regiment and start taking more stock in the fact that I'm getting older and I want to be Phabolous at 50 and 60.


The Plan: Well I'm already a member of Weight Watchers, so I can track my weight and I have a gym membership that I plan to ACTUALLY use this year. All I ask is that everyone keep me lifted in constant prayer, because I love sweets and I have gym allergies that are flaring up as I type. WTH!


Again I am not trying to be Thin, that is not the goal. My goal is to Look good and Feel good from the inside out. Loving me enough to know when Change is necessary.