The arrogant part of me would like to believe that this journey was of my own choosing. But it was Time, I think the Creator got tired of watching me travel around in the same circle wasting the gifts He had given me. He created me to be Phabolous and to live a Phabolous life. That is His wish for all of us. I don't believe a person has to be holier than thou or walk around toting a bible to recognize when God is moving in their lives. Sometimes there is no other explanation.
Over the past 47 days I have been in a tug of war, fighting with great vigor the changes that are occuring in my life. This time I am not winning...God is standing His ground. He is deteremined that my life will be an example of how great He is.
Anyone who has been through a season of change knows that the hardest part is the Pressure. The pressure that must be applied in order to uncover the beauty that lies within. If you can withstand the pressure... Glory! I am learning that during this season of change everything has a purpose. Every triumph, every trail and every tribulation has a purpose. There is a reason why people seem to be turning their backs on you. There is a reason why you are always sick, always tired. There is a reason why you lost your job, there is a reason why the relationship ended. Even my insomnia has a purpose.There is no time for Sleep...Change is Coming! The pressure is changing my posture. I don't Stand the same therefore I won't Stand for the same. The pressure is making my heart Tougher, my mind Wiser and my shoulders Stronger. So the next time life throws me a punch I'll be Tough enough to withstand it or Wise enough to duck. The next time the weight of the world is on my shoulders I'll be able to stand a little taller, throw my shoulders back and Scream "Is that All you GOT!" The pressure... I Thank God for the Pressure. I'm thankful He chose me to apply pressure to. I know it is because He sees in me what I have yet to see in myself, A Diamond. And just as you must apply pressure to a lump of coal to produce a diamond, so must you apply pressure to your life to come out Shinning. Shinning Like the Beautiful, Brilliant, Phabolous Jewel you were meant to be.
You got it!! Change is coming! You understand that God has already layed the road paved away, it's a matter of how many times you are going to take your eye off God's destination. As you stated before the journey is hard. You are going to have rough days that will derail you. BUT....you have God and you have people in your life that when you take a wrong turn, we'll have big flashing lights to help steer you back on God's road map. We can only steer you. You'll have to get back on the road yourself. The beauty of this all, is that God's light will be shining so bright that the wrong turns will be fewer and fewer. So much so that you'll see a detour sign (which God never has a short cut way of doing things) and you'll say "Hey, I've been down that road! That wasn't a pleasant place." And God will say, "Now, that's MY baby girl!"
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