Standing In The Need of Prayer

                                 It's me, It's me, It's me Oh Lord
                                 Standing in the need of Prayer
                           STANDING IN THE NEED OF PRAYER

Somehow at the beginning of all of this I thought it would be so much easier. I really thought I had it all figured out. Starting over seemed so simple. All I had to do was wipe away the bad things, detox my life, cleanse my spirit and begin again. Let me be the first to say....This Sh:t ain't easy and on most days I feel like I'm in the fight of my life. Struggling to keep it all together, struggling to stay afloat...just struggling.
It is very hard to find your inner Diva when life is kicking your ass. What I will say is that despite my bad days, I still look forward to completing this journey. I really can not predict where I will be in the next 9 months but I know I will be a different woman than I was when I began. These first 3 months have been extremely hard but very revealing. I've learned that I am only 1/2 as weak as I thought I was and not nearly as strong as I was pretending to be.
Funny....when you strip away the bull that clutters your life and stand naked in front of the mirror of  reality; you see yourself for who you really are. The reality of it is that I need help. Despite my "I can do it by myself" resolve at the beginning of the year, I started turning to my friends and love ones and asking for help. I've started asking the people that I know pray to Pray for Me, pray for my health and pray for my journey. It has been very humbling and eye opening. You find out who really loves you and has your best interest at heart when you ask them for help. Most will say yes "I'll help you and I'll pray for you", but watch how many truly follow through. How many will call and encourage you, inquire about your successes and failures; knock on your door and pull you out of your house and out of your slump? How many REALLY want to see you reach your goals? How many can handle you living a Phabolous Life?
Let's just say the truth has no problem revealing itself when you seek it. More importantly when you open yourself up and reveal your truth; people can better understand you and your needs and PRAY for you. Yes the journey has been hard and its had its ups and downs but I can appreciate every bump and bruise I've acquired thus far. I look forward to the smooth roads ahead as I continue to navigate around the potholes of life, STILL FIT TO BE PHABOLOUS!